two step

does feeling out of control
trigger
the anger
or does being angry
create this feeling
of being
out of control?
dancing this dance
leaves me wanting
to turn the
fucking music
off.

going through all of my self-portrait series journal pages tells me that i use “dancing” & “wondering” a lot. i am dancing with wonder? wondering about the dance?
going through all those journal pages is also bringing up a lot of feelings that i really don’t want to be feeling.
ack!
i hope i survive putting this book together!
if i do survive…surely i will be stronger for it….

every day is inktober

writing
led me to
art
which brought me back
to my
writing
…it’s the story
you see
no matter how
you tell it
it must
be told.

dude. i totally spaced on inktober…again…but, as it turns out, i have posted an inking every day of october so far. because, well, ever since 2016, almost every day has been inktober for me.
inktober 2016 is when it all began, my full-fledged & messy love affair with my ink (there’s an interesting mental picture…but it looks a lot like a room full of inkings of myself–see yesterday’s post.)
yes! in honor of inktober (which i. had spaced, but the universe kindly remembered for me) i have an exhibit of the ink adventure that reflects work that began inktober 2017! my self-portrait series “the invisible exhibitionist,” hangs at the commons in viroqua & will at some point soon be available for viewing on their website (though i still urge y’all to come visit the real thing.)
also!
in subconscious honor of inktober, i released my first book of comics on october 1st. confusion perfume was when i began to seriously start using ink rather than my previous flirtation with watercolors.
so much like the ink running through my veins, inktober is never far from my heart.

untangled

my body
after being my ride
for fifty years now
is
finally
learning to relax
muscles & nerves
unwinding
after
a lifetime
of knot
a childhood
spent
on high alert
tangled
became
my baseline
as i waited
for my worst case scenario
to come true
now…
with yoga
body work
art journals
& the odd meditations
now
i am unwinding
softening
opening
&
maybe?
am ready
for a best case scenario.

so my book confusion perfume & other neurotic comics is officially available from amazon.
sunday, i will be hanging my self-portrait series in the community center of this small wisconsin town.
so little…but so fucking much.
if i don’t relax, i might shatter into a million pieces…so, yeah, good thing i’ve finally figured that out.

in other news…

the freestore i started last winter is open again!

i am starting a writer’s/artist’s group on monday…

my art show (the invisible exhibitionist) is going up this weekend?

& my book is due for release on october 1st.

i’m only freaking out a little. okay. so i am super-dooper freaking out & my imposter syndrome feels like i am about to step off a cliff & spiral downward into the abyss…but, you know, otherwise…exciting stuff.

look at me now

i have finished the project! the portraits for an art show are done.
in all, i have 69 portraits.
wow.
i did a final one in the style i have been using for my current journal pages. it is on display over on my patreon site, but eventually might make its way over here.
i am, overall, pretty happy with the collection.
so…
what now?

just keep inking….

i have actually developed anxiety about finishing this project.
i might just keep inking my portrait indefinitely.
this is the same thing that happened when my first inktober experience ended.

more selfies!

i am just living & breathing ink right now. but i am almost done & am kind of panicked about not having more to do….
but maybe i can finish something else next?

(sorry about the photo quality–my phone & i are both challenged in the photo taking department.)

the invisible exhibitionist


i have an upcoming art show!
date is to be announced…but i will be showing inkings from my “the invisible exhibitionist” series of self-portraits for the grand re-opening of the commons in viroqua, wi.
whoa.
so i am working on doing more finished versions of the art journal self-portraits i did for three years (almost 500 pages of self-portraits.)
so exciting!
i will keep y’all updated.

also, here is a photo of my art being sold in the local art mart!!

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