rick springfield is my patron saint

this is a journal page from just over a year ago, one of several horned images of myself i have drawn

so i was on the third season of lucifer & feeling guilty about binging on a network tv show when i realized that it was based on a neil gaiman character (one of my favorite male writers) thereby relieving me of my guilt.
the tv show has inspired thinking points for me in my latest embracing of my darkness via my “fallen” series.
and then today
after having a friend put 18 hours of music on a thumbdrive so i had music in my car, i realized i had forgotten all about rick springfield.
so i went to google him and realized he has seemingly been creating non-stop since the 80s–when i listened to his music because my big sister was in love with him.
his latest album the snake king, has angels, demons, god, the devil, and the underworld all through it.
huh.
it’s pretty dark & pissed off & has a twangy sound to it–which is not what i expected.
but this is not a review of rick springfield.
it is my own wondering about how when you start looking at the world in a different way, the world is only too happy to comply by dropping crumbs in your path.
being a recovering catholic, i have been both drawn to & repelled by my own darkness as well as any dealings with demons & devils.
since embracing them…new doors are opening & i am being shown the threads that bind us all together.
or, at least, i am listening to rick springfield & thinking deep thoughts.


don’t walk away

though i feel comfort
at the thought
of a no-more
a
never-more
i am invested
in this story
& long to know
how it will
unfold
will i laugh?
will i cry?
i will not stop
turning the pages
of my life
even if at times
i feel
like
setting the book
down
& walking
the fuck
away,
i come back
i come back
i pick up
where i left off
my story
this
is not
the end.

whenever i say “don’t walk away” in real life, i actually sing it. rick springfield, y’all. (rick springfield rocks!!) i have done it so consistently, that my kids have started doing it as well.
maybe it’s my theme song now.
historically, my theme song has been “boots” as sung by nancy sinatra…& “born to run” as sung by frankie goes to hollywood (sorry bruce.)
maybe it’s time for an update.

credit for my drawing, of course, goes to lewis carrol who may have been a perv but who wrote & illustrated at least one of the best stories. this is one of my favorite favorite illustrations amid the original lewis carrol drawings. i once thought of getting it as a tattoo.

ps. i also consider “you got lucky” by tom petty to be my theme song.
pss. that’s the extent of my flirting…watch out, boys.

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