last but certainly not least fire my fire i love to watch you dance & so often i burn myself on your flames but i come back again & again because even it it does not make sense for water to love fire i crave your bright & enduring heat.
(this one dedicated to the many many many fire signs i have adored–both friends & lovers)
you know what? i don’t need an editor because i fucking rock at grammar, etc what i do need is a test audience readers who want to read my novel & answer a few questions for me general feedback like do you like me…yes or no? can you fit your fist through any of the holes in the plot? that kind of thing
my only taker so far is my younger sister aka my polar opposite. i am willing to let her read it because she does get me–at least sometimes. and we did come from the same place even though we took different exits (i was vaginal; she was a c-section; i ran away to become a fry cook; she went to college, etc….)
who else wants to read a better life through sock puppets? a darkly funny story of a runaway suicidal mom? yay! just remember, in critiquing it for me…break my heart gently.
“break my heart gently” ink on watercolor paper. 9X12. suggested price: $45 to $75
also, i would love to trade art for some editorial advice if anyone qualified wants to read it. it’s a quick read at like not quite 58,000 words. (candice, your name has been dropped a couple of times…just email me if you have time & interest)
in the meantime, what does any novel need if not some illustrations! 🙂
ps. fun fact…though i have written 6 novels, this is the first one i have written in the 21st century using a laptop instead of a notebook, typewriter, or word processor. this will also be the first one to be published.
thank you to everyone who bought art from my sale! you all are wonderful.
i’m struggling right now with the fact that being able to put weight on my leg does not mean i am back to normal. i’m sure that is a sign of the way i approach life, just assuming i can do it without putting in the work? expecting to be a success from the word “go”? ack…doing the hard work…. instead i laid on the floor today crying because i cannot do an extended child pose in yoga. not to mention most of the other poses i did effortlessly before this. doesn’t that count for something? that i used to be able to do it…just 3 months ago??
two weeks ago i fell off of a step ladder & broke my knee monday i fell tuesday i got around to going to the er wednesday i went to an orthopedic surgeon thursday i had surgery now 10 weeks of non-weight bearing activity believe you me i have written plenty of pages about it & all the resulting epiphanies however i do not have internet at my house & it is difficult to get out of the house & to the internet so! if anyone wants to donate money for internet i got the paypal button on those pages for buying/donating…. otherwise good things come to those who wait….
i am working on this new ink on canvas tentatively titled “foxy.” i really like working on canvas & now that i am down to my last free canvas, i am thinking of buying more for future creations. that bunny keeps hopping into my art lately. i have even started a children’s book starring him. fun fact. after i wrote the text for said children’s book, i went to my sun porch, looked out the window, and watched three bunnies eating dandelions in my backyard. i stood & watched for at least ten minutes. if you have never watched a bunny eat a dandelion, you are totally missing out.
in other news, i went through all my journals looking for “fodder” for books & stories. i have decided to focus on one project at a time instead of being easily distracted & starting new projects without finishing old ones. after the children’s book illustrations are done, i will focus on finishing the text & doing illustrations for my novel, a better life through sock puppets. i am trying to give myself credit for what i have achieved. i let myself be proud of the fact that i found so many random ideas & sketches worth working with! including the above gem from 2016.
so i am not moping. i am rebuilding that fucking tower & giving myself credit for doing a good job with it. as they say in my home state of wisconsin–forward!