i noticed that i use my rapidograph pen so much differently than i use my bamboo pen. i feel like i can be more expressive with my bamboo pen. drawing with my rapidograph pen feels more restrained more controlled. i’m not sure i like it….
however, i did a series of drawings the other night–clearly effected by the heat. this is the first one.
so i am always looking for ways to break out in new directions with my art. i can do something for quite awhile (like draw myself almost 500 times in a row.) however, i eventually get sick to death of me. so while admiring the work of lucy k draws over on instagram, i realized i need to go back to doing some figure drawing. i have played around with figure drawing in the past, but i have fallen into a portrait drawing rut that is kind of starting to annoy me. so after studying a bit of lucy k’s work, i then realized i had a little bit of her style in me already & went into my bathroom to find a magazine to borrow from.
my first effort defaulted into the realm of portrait again….
but i was pretty happy with the second attempt (featured image for this post.) so i am embracing figure drawing, my bamboo pen & ink brush, and playing around with exaggerated features while trying to do more realistic shadowing. that’s what i’m up to. artistically speaking….
a week from today i will have survived for one half of a century. (that is the best way my brain can interpret what is happening) i have never struggled with a number before…but i really really do not feel like i could possibly be this old.
i don’t know which way is up. it’s a bad time of year for me. my mom’s burial…the anti-versary of being molested on the exact same day my dog died…the fourth of july…my dad’s birthday…then my birthday…. i’m hoping to stabilize by mid-july?
i did not go to my mother’s funeral…i went camping instead. i just could not gamble on going from a “green” state to a “red” one willingly exposing my family to the stigma of traveling in the time of covid i have a lot of mixed feelings about this. and a couple of journal pages….