sugar & spice

i’m a really nice person
i am…
until you piss
me
off…
blame it on my scorpio
rising
but this cancer
doesn’t always
disappear
into her
shell.
sometimes
she stings…
watch out
for that
sting.

i have been looking at my astrological chart with my friend. we are both cancers–but i have scorpio rising…scorpio moon…lots & lots of water in me.
so i struggle with boundaries & have some mild bouts of moodiness (hahahahahahaha!)

this is more experimenting with ardhanarishvara…full body…genitalia & whatnot. i still need to play with it more….

bubbling cauldron

so much anger
am i angry
because
my brother
was murdered
& i am
too polite
to avenge him?
am i angry
that my ex-husband
destroyed me
leaving me
a broken person
rebuilding
&
no matter how many
times
i ink the story
he refuses to read it?
am i angry
that my sons
will never know
how much
i sacrificed
to be their
mother?
am i angry
at the world
for being
deliberately
blind
&
ignorant?

from my dead brother’s birthday through his death anniversary through holidays heavy with bad memories & deeply ingrained anxiety….
this time of year i can become just a bubbling cauldron of angst. add in a good dose of idocracy fueled by a corrupt government & medical system….
i have only had one public outburst…so yay for that.

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