twisted

i’m so far
out of whack
i am the letter “i”
but i look
like a “z”
i am so twisted
i don’t even want
to do the little things
that unwind me
do
the little things
that keep me
going
recovery from this mood
seems
impossible
seems
unreachable
when each morning
i wake up
thinking
“today i will get it
together”
but ultimately
i spend the day
just trying not to
fall apart
all over again.

i am thinking this is part of the journey more than a bump in the road. like i have to rest right now. maybe i keep hurting myself because i won’t stop trying to go too fast & too far.
so i’m resting.
just
resting.

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2 thoughts on “twisted

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  1. There’s a rhythm to change
    a very personal rhythm
    not often an easy beat to find
    like toddlers discovering how
    to dance and run with grace
    we stumble and get feet tangled
    and, yes, need to stop and rest too

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