not this time

i’m not going to hate myself
this time
i’m not going to beat
this time
i’m going to get back up
i’m going to live
to fight
another day
to love
another day
i’m going to dust myself off
& not
let them
see me cry.

a follow up to my fall from hopefulness in yesterday’s post. i have to keep believing in me even when i want to bury me in a shallow grave & pretend i don’t know me.
so much easier said than done.
i’m not going to bore y’all with details as i am sick to death of my own broken heart.

this illustration was done by mixing pastels with inks. it was fun to do–especially the smearing with my finger bits. i was craving an even messier experience with my art when i did this.

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