he hates me
i did not construct
my life around
i am unable
saw my ex (father of my children aka dusty knickers) yesterday and not only did i diffuse an attack he attempted, but also did i express to him, calmly, that he is perhaps motivated by misery.
& he seemed to listen.
i tried & tried & tried, while we were together, to convince him that we could live a better life. he persisted in his misery.
eventually i left him to it.
& now he seems to resent that i am following my dreams.