alone again

i feel like
to survive my lonely
i have to isolate
to weed
out
every half-assed friend
& insincere
acquaintance
who only seems to care
when there is something
in it
for them
because
when i feel alone
i feel
even more
alone
for all the people
who fail me.

might be my inner pariah talking, but i find when i feel alone, all i want to do is isolate. like throwing out the junk food when you are starving.
hmmm.
so i find myself dumping my friends who aren’t really my friends.
and i am being fair & giving them the benefit of the doubt. i’m not just making heads roll…but still, what friends i have are not meeting even my lowest of standards.

i need new friends. substantial friends. no more junk food.
how does one go about meeting authentic people?

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  1. That’s a damned good question. How often can we recognize the real ones right off the bat, or have to wait to see if their colors we see are their real ones? I’ve done the isolation thing. It didn’t work to find people except maybe by accident.

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