solitary

instead of feeling awkwardly
self-conscious
when i am alone
in a crowd
i have embraced
my solitary
state
i hold my head high
no longer worried
that people are judging me
because i
am no longer
judging me.

i don’t know if people notice my awkwardness at public events. i do know that i have pulled off just looking aloof & unapproachable (based on what people have told me) even when feeling like i am sticking out like a big sore thumb who shouldn’t even be there….
but i wrote this after realizing i could just embrace being solitary rather than feel self-conscious about it.
huh.
a change in perspective is always nice.