twisting

as i was watching the dust settle
a tornado came through
& sent it all spinning
again
the thoughts in my head like leaves
being pulled
into a black hole.

so i have been going through whatever i have been going through for way longer than i know what to do with. i have good-ish days, and then sink back down again.
i am convinced it is a sort of transformation. that is what i hope anyhow.
the past few days i keep accidentally putting my clothes on backwards. i wondered what the universe was trying to tell me & decided it was, “turn around, bright eyes.”
also!
i saw three robins yesterday…so, yeah, hope?