i wanna start the fire

an explosion
that instant
that spark finds
the ball of gas
&
ignites!
all my life
i’ve feared it
throwing myself
on the flames
so as not
to attract
attention
sacrificing myself
to keep things
safe
& unchanged
but is the lack of
change actually safe
or is that the
building
ball of gas
waiting for my spark
to
ignite
it?

more on my inevitable transformation. preparing for that. need to put on my goggles & flame retarded suit.