i have a fear of abandonment
like many people do
instead of clinging
when i feel forgotten
i build more & better
higher & thicker
if you can’t get in
you can’t hurt me
if i never let you in
you can never
this one is dedicated to the last therapist i fired after he cancelled an appointment with me without telling me why. i was going through a hard time anyway & kinda spun out on him.
at an early age my frankenstein’s monster complex kicked in. “if i cannot inspire love, i will cause fear…”
or just turn invisible as was the case for me.
the more my parents ignored me, the more invisible i became.
my little sister became the squeaky wheel…i became the invisible girl.
my method has literally never worked out for me.
i persist. because, for an invisible girl, i am persistent in making myself even more miserable.
now i am trying to take some walls down…but even as i do, little setbacks get me to stirring the concrete & setting the bricks anew….
metaphors galore…a good name for a band.