pretty picture
they say
how much?
i tell them
& they walk away
&
i spin
am i asking
too much?
sure
ink is cheap
paper too
but
i put so much of myself
in every
inking
years & years
of trying
of failing
of hurting
of growing
of figuring shit out
pretty lady
they say
what are you worth?
any price
i put on me
is going to be
too much
just
walk away.
i have now a diminished idea of what my inkings are worth. so if you want some, now would be the time to buy!
conversely, i now have the highest self-esteem i have ever had since childhood. did i have self-esteem in childhood? i can’t remember for sure. i mean, sometimes i can’t tell the difference between self-esteem & just not giving a fuck.
last day of inktober.
tomorrow starts nanowrime & my first year ever doing it.
Quixotic Mama 
That’s awesome, beautifully written
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thank you!
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Your welcome!
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People don’t understand the time, effort and feeling artists put into their work – don’t undersell yourself.
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thanks! xo
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I will be buying something when my next paycheque comes in. Don’t take the lack of sales too personally- things are tight for lots of people these days. Art might take a back seat to electricity, food, and rent for a lot of folks. It sucks for a lot of musicians right now too who relied on live gigs that are no longer happening (for now). A lot of them have gone online and turned to YouTube, podcasts, etc., because that’s where the audience went: at home, stuck and a bit lonely for people’s faces and voices. We’re all getting a shakeup. I wonder where on Maslow’s hierarchy art falls? Not as high as it probably should, in these times. I hope you and your family are well. I am sure you will find your best channels.
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thank you for the pep talk ❤ don't feel like you have to buy anything. but if you do want something, i am totally flexible on prices–& do accept trade!
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I’ll put an order in this weekend! I think my PayPal wallet might have some room. The wait times on getting funds into that thing are a bit annoying. What exactly does PayPal do with our money for the 5-10 business days it takes for them to let us have it?
I’m also working on a side project involving paying a small amount of Bitcoin in exchange for original, open-source content (stories, poems, visuals). A bit of a random question, but do you (or somebody you know) happen to take Bitcoin?
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i do not know about bitcoin–sorry!
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No worries! It’s a weird concept but gaining traction
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