rotten

all i ever wanted
even
before i met you
was to be
a family…
with you
i thought we would be
always & forever
us…
did you ever
want me?
i wonder now
remembering all those
side projects
of yours
people who needed
saving
people
who weren’t
me
i wanted you to save
me
you
had other people
to do…
maybe the dead thing
i smell rotting
is me….

something that has happened repeatedly with dusty is my need to be seen & celebrated & his choosing to focus on other people.
random people
anybody, really, who wasn’t me….