still got hope in my box

i don’t regret
trying again
i don’t feel stupid
for trying
i am happy
that my capacity for hope
is still
intact
after all these years
after all
of the abuse
of it
&
even if everything
turned out the same…
i am
different.

true story. usually when dusty & i break up i am all like, “what the fuck was i thinking!??!”
but not this time. this time i truly felt like i was looking for healing. looking to move forward.
but when i found out he was not to that place yet (if ever) i was okay with giving up.
i was okay with all of it.
weird.

2 thoughts on “still got hope in my box

Add yours

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: