impossible

you ask me what
i want
i want to be a family
happily ever after
i want
flowers & rainbows
even if
it’s mixed with
chaos & curse words
you ask me what
i want
but it is what
i have wanted
every day
that
i have known you….
why do you still
insist on
making it
impossible?

i think dusty sabotaged us. i think he continues to sabotage us. i am guessing that deep down, he also believes he does not deserve happiness. i feel sad about this…but i do not wanted to be treated in a cruel & callous way so someone can fulfill their own prophecy.