looking for a fight

why does it seem
as if
i run
on angst
& conflict?
unable
to function
unless
pissed off
about something…
anything.
paralyzed
by happiness
&…
peace?
a calm center
rendering me
placated
amid the chaos
a new found
balance
won’t let me
fall
down…
what do i do
when i no longer
feel like crying?

more explorations into my recent brush with feeling calm & centered. what the fuck is going on?
but, i am writing/drawing through this & showing the world that i can indeed turn anything into something to feel anxious about.