the suburbs

sometimes
i just don’t
have words
my brain
idling
like a car
in the
mcdonald’s
drive thru
sometimes
all
is quiet…
content?
like someone
snuck in
that
long-awaited
lobotomy
sometimes
i just feel
uncomfortably
numb
like
somehow
i took a
wrong turn
& wandered
away
from my
suburban life.

see. this is what i was talking about yesterday. my brain is just away on vacation & since i never ever take vacation…it just feels wrong. i am relaxed & calm…& it is freaking me out.
like i am suspicious of feeling happy? yeah. just like that.