i asked my kids
if
after i died of throat cancer
from screaming at them
if they would remember
what i said.
they answered “yes”
…but only because they didn’t really
listen
to what i was
saying
i’m not sure how to feel…
my throat hurts.
don’t ask how the packing is going…just…don’t ask….
these are images i did for a watercolor class some years back…a week of illustrations of how i felt as a mom. things haven’t changed too much.
ohmygod I completely understand this entire post. Because…. of course I do.
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thank you ❤ i always worry i am a horrible monster…but being a mom is so hard sometimes (or all the time.)
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Yes. 97.4% of the time.
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My mom used to say the same thing. I won’t say how she died. It is still sad — and I wish I had listened. more to her as I miss her voice.
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oh–i’m sorry! ❤
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I love the illustrations… you are so talented!
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thank you!
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i love the frog so so much!!!
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thank you!
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Emje,
I love the watercolors and I so understand your words. When my Mom died, for a long time, I couldn’t remember the sound of her voice and the woman knew how to use her voice. It was the oddest and then the scariest damned thing. Then one night I dreamed she was talking with me and I woke up crying because I remembered and she was there and I so needed to hear her again! Hang in there! Mona
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thank you! motherhood is such a tricky thing. i did not have a good relationship with my own mother, which has really had an impact on my own experience as a mother. ❤ thank you!
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Memories of mom screaming at us are some of my fondest ones, haha.
Those watercolors tho. ❤
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