though i feel comfort
at the thought
of a no-more
a
never-more
i am invested
in this story
& long to know
how it will
unfold
will i laugh?
will i cry?
i will not stop
turning the pages
of my life
even if at times
i feel
like
setting the book
down
& walking
the fuck
away,
i come back
i come back
i pick up
where i left off
my story
this
is not
the end.
originally posted on august 31, 2018
another one towards the one day realization of the invisible exhibitionist.

i tore up so many versions of this. i am still not completely happy with the final…but there is a lot i like about it too.
i am not sure why i went with lewis carroll’s drawing of alice for this one. i do know that i have always loved this illustration. when i re-did it, i worked from my version of the illustration, without looking at his, which is my habit. to work from my own art that i first borrowed from someone else….
if that makes sense.
anyhoo!
i noticed that this as well as my last post are about survival & not doing myself in as the little voices sometimes suggest…so that’s nice.
Such clean lines! Did you really use the bamboo pen on this one? Love the splat in the corner
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i accidentally dripped ink on the first one i did in this series–so i decided to make it my signature…ha!
this one was regular pen. and by regular pen i mean my super temperamental rapidograph pens.
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I was thinking, damn, she really got that bamboo pen under some tight control. LOL
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the bamboo pen has a mind of it’s own–which i can really appreciate 🙂
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Yeah, I like the splattiness of it
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me too 🙂
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