alone
who can i blame
but me
alone
my screams
fall on my own
ears
alone
i look at my reflection
really look
this time
not me reflected
in someone else’s
eyes
but
me
standing before
myself
will i hold
myself
up
or push me
down?
i’m thinking of changing my look. i think i could pull off some faux fur. and maybe martinis might be in order.
i have been sober many days now…it is not pretty.
i am going through some stuff.
what? no? not you!
yes, but different stuff. like my usual stuff is sorted & put away, and now i am on to new stuff.
i feel like i am trying to wriggle out of an old skin…but i am struggling to get that fucker off my back.
lots of anger & snarky behavior…which then causes a spiral of guilt & oh-my-god-i-suckness.
fun fun fun.
i wish i knew how many layers this onion has…how many more levels i have to do before i win.
this is a card i’m sending to my sister for her birthday (shhh)

Snarky is good! Sometimes. And I love the card… if I got a card like that in the mail, it would bring me joy.
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yay!
see (being snarky) i’m more of a shark person than a dolphin person so i felt weird painting a dolphin–but my sister loves them. so i put away my shark snark. i’m glad it worked ❤
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😁 sharks are good too
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I think personal growth is always two steps forward, one step back… forever. But we do learn despite what our crooked brains may want us to think
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right? it’s definitely a dance.
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