today is a sunshine
feeling
on my soul
as i am
sideswiped by
some
free floating feeling
of hope
a little glow
of
happiness like a letter in the mail
but not a love
letter
not a secret admirer
hoping for a
woo
but the letter i see in my heart
a letter telling me
how wonderful
&
talented
how amazing i am
a letter for me
& me
alone
i do not crave an “us” when
this happy happy hits
my heart
this anticipation
of good things
to come
no
i crave a me
all i want
is me.
i realize yesterday i was talking about wanting to be taken care of. and, yes, i do long for someone in my life to love & care for me in the way i need that. however! when i was feeling hopeful on the day i wrote this, i was not hoping for romance. i was hoping for…how do i say it? fulfillment? reaching that place in my life when i am…i dunno. it’s so hard to explain. i felt it in me when i wrote this. it got expressed as a letter in the mail. that special feeling of a letter in the mail.
but a letter that completes me…as a person? does anyone know what i mean? also, this picture was all pen on paper–no forethought. i just put pen to paper & drew. so…brick mermaid? i’m not sure. maybe i will interpret it at some point.
meanwhile, a couple days ago i was driving in my car when i remembered intentional communities. and then thought about how maybe there was a community that would welcome livestock as well.
sometimes i feel like my brain is a very poorly routed labyrinth.
how did i forget about intentional communities? i lived in a cooperative house for four years where my passion for cooperative living was ignited despite the horrible drama of said house.
so i started researching over on the intentional communities site i have always used. and i have found there might be a place for the minions & me & all of our pets.
but the point of my bringing all of this up is that there is a place called teaching drum in wisconsin where a community of people live on property and teach outdoor skills. i went to check out what they are hiring…beekeepers? goat milkers? duck wranglers?…office administration. oh.
then i thought…do i qualify? i have no experience with anything. no one will hire me….
but i started writing my resume and you know what? i have a lot of fucking experience. and some of it even happens to be in an office & doing computer-y stuff. holy fuck, y’all. i have done a lot of things–learned a lot of things–in my 48 years breathing air on this planet. writing a resume incorporating life experience & informal jobs/education can be empowering.
huh.
i have a lot to offer to an intentional community.
maybe this is what that letter in the mail feeling is about. valuing myself.
Sweet!!
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Wisconsin huh? Where in WI? Born and raised and lovely place… can dig up fond memories. Viroqua is the place i love 💗
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i lived in dane county for 14 years. i like the driftless area. my friend lives in viroqua–it’s one place i was thinking about. there are a few communities. some in that area (gays mills) & more up north. i love wisconsin. i was living in manitowoc right before i moved to illinois.
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Wonderful for you. Hope for the best 💝. Oh yes… Gays Mills, Richland Center, Soldiers Grove. My gggrandmother gave shelter to BlackHawk and his squaw during the BlackHawk War. The BlackHawk Trail is notable… i should get her house on the trail! Just remnants left of her place (she was a widow)… it was a one room log cabin… i believe what is DeSoto. J
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my friend in viroqua is going to put in a good word for me at the dancing waters co-op in gays mills.
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You got this!!! 🏹 ✨
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Woohoo, is this what a smile sounds like (teeHee). I only jest Emje, I don’t presume to know your problems but it is nice to hear you’re having a better moment. As my daughter keeps telling me “enjoy the little things” xx
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it is so very important to enjoy the little things ❤ thank you
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