is it something in the wind?
is it a changing of the seasons?
you try to remember the last time
the last time
the last time you convinced yourself
things could be different between you & him
was it just a few months ago?
you remember screaming
& throwing him
out of your house
your second son’s birthday…
the last time you invited him in
into your house
just a little
the door peeked open
& he pushed his way in
& you pushed him back out again
until you wonder
why is there a revolving door on your heart?
after all this time
all these years
why is he still
doing this dance
selfie with my dodo, y’all.
so i talked to my tarot cards tonight…about my crazy-ass feelings for my ex-husband, aka dusty…
i was told to control my impulses…to not jump into anything…to not abandon the path i have worked so hard on taking….
my tarot cards never let me have any fun.
but, of course, they are right.
even if i were to work things out with my very handsome though emotionally stunted & narcissistic ex-husband, i should not–should definitely not–rush into it.
of course, i don’t know how to not rush into things…so i guess now is the time to learn.
in other news,
i lost my favorite pen. it has completely vanished. poof. gone. a replacement tip in the same size is $17.00 (i have several pens with clogged tips & could just switch out a new tip in the size of my favorite pen.) i have ordered one because the art must go on…but, i am on the verge of being very very broke & you know, donations are always welcome…as are purchases of my art.
should i set up a patreon page or something?
i need an agent/broker.