the wrong one

after all this time
after everything
or
because of everything
i just can’t believe i am the kind of person
who deserves to be loved
whenever
i see someone i would like to call
my own
i worry they will find their true love
before
i can convince them
to love me.

look how pretty i am.
when i met dusty, i believed in my heart i was the wrong one for him. we worked together in this restaurant and there was a girl there who did not work for the restaurant, but was a care-taker for a mentally challenged man who worked with us. i thought she would be the perfect one for dusty. i believed he was a better person than me and that he deserved a better person than me. i worried he would one day realize this.
so i have a small crush on someone i follow on instagram and when i went to follow a woman i know, i–all of a sudden–was convinced that she was the perfect one for my crush & that if i followed both of them they would somehow meet & realize this.
i have serious issues.
i am happy to report that i decided to follow her despite my feelings of inadequacy.