& i wonder how many times
in how many ways
i can say
the same thing
& not be heard?
of my invisibility
i want out
i. want. out.
can you hear
get me out
my own head
want to leave.
i think maybe this project has reached a conclusion…or maybe it will go on forever.
maybe i will go on forever
comforting myself with my own suffocating sadness
or maybe i will start an illustrated memoir.
i should really start an illustrated memoir.
so…i need an agent & a cheerleader.
someone who can tolerate large doses of bitter animosity & self-pity.
also, must enjoy loud children.