i finally finished this.
it’s the 12th of february and i have only done 3 inkings.
but that’s okay.
sometimes maybe i get stuck.
okay. lots of times i get stuck.
yesterday, however, i made 10 valentines & mailed them out.
10 of these in one day. that’s something. they are all just an inkstain with one inking done by pen. no ink brush. no final scribbling with the pen. so a few steps shy of what i would call a finished inking. but i did 10 in one day. i did that.
fuck christmas cards (i always forget to send them)…but i sent out valentines…you know, to 10 people. more next year if i get some addresses written down.
so that was fun.
but i’m still a wreck. i wake up every morning thinking i will be able to handle the day. but by sunset, i’m pretty sure i did not handle the day very well.
fuck.
and i need to learn how to milk a sheep.
i’m such a half-assed homesteader. i’ve got sunflower micro greens, potatoes, and spinach growing in my sunroom despite my inability to remember i have things growing out there.
i have spinach & lettuce growing in my cold frame despite my inability to capture and formerly punish the groundhog who keeps raiding it.
and i have broccoli somehow growing in a hoop house despite my inability to keep the structure sound.
and i have livestock reproducing in my yard despite my inattention to the process.
plus i’m going to put in bees and a full garden come spring?
when will i draw? i’m going to have to actually pay attention to my homestead one of these days…not to mention my parenting.
i might be a bit overwhelmed.
i might be a bit stressed.
i might be a bit lonely and wishing i had someone here to tell me that i got this.
because sometimes i just feel like i’m drowning in it all.
alone & drowning.
but i finished another inking.
That’s a lot to do. Make a list, then disregard it, but making it will make you feel as if you’re doing something. That’s what I do. Seriously, you have a lot going on.
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It’s a lot to contend with when you’re on your own. But I really love the inkings you’ve posted! Did each Valentine get a different one?
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thank you! i did just an ink drawing on each valentine. not a finished ink (or what i would call finished.)
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Still cool though! I didn’t send any Valentines…nor did I receive any!
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when i was in my twenties i would make a bunch and go to my favorite bar & hand them out. then my heart got broken on v-day & i kind of stopped loving it. but i am trying to reclaim it for a day to reach out to one’s tribe & share some love. it’s fun for me.
i did not get any valentine’s either. my first ex-husband messaged me a “<3" …i suggested he get me a bottle of whiskey instead.
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