i got several text messages from my ex-husband today. he is lost and wants me to find him.
he started out asking if we had snow. we don’t. he does. “is that different from when you were a kid?” he asks about my snowless winter. he knows i worry about climate change. his question is a question about that. instead of comforting me, he likes to provoke my fears.
but i’m really not in the mood. not anymore.
“doom & gloom” i text back to him. he thinks i am referring to myself. i let him know that i feel he is always trying to get me to think about the worst.
i let him know i am done thinking about the worst.
& i am done with him.
he tells me he wants to be my ally.
i ask, why, he never has been before.
he tells me he wants to support my dreams.
he tells me he has been doing crunches.
after awhile i stop answering his texts. after i tell him that there are so many things wrong with the world that all i can do is to choose to be happy.
i am happy. strangely enough.
i am happy.